Big Day Today

Amidst the chaos of the recent season came the package that I had actually entirely forgotten- the paperback version of my book.  It has been a couple of days, and I have only just made the time to sit down and take a look at it this evening, just for a minute.

I've heard that actors don't necessarily watch the movies in which they have just participated, and I can commiserate; I've reviewed this work enough to say, "OK, whatever it is- it is done, and it's time for a rest."  Now that I'm sitting here with a copy of the book in my lap, I'm still battling with the "Do I care what people think?  I just needed to get this writing out of me," and the jury is still out.

On one hand it was an amazing adventure.  If it's not entirely apparent from the layout, etc.- this was done entirely on my own, from the cover photo to the credits and layout.  Whatever it is- it's all mine, and I'll own it, for better or for worse.

On the other hand, I'm a little concerned that it's sloppy and not worth anyone's attention.  I'm experiencing a series of, "Oh, I could have XX" and "Gee, I should have done XXX," which isn't doing anyone any good.  I do love figuring things out on my own (and there was PLENTY of that!), but maybe if I had hired someone, things would turn out differently.
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​I may end up just sitting here in a funk, staring at the cover.